You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.

( meme - thanks kitsunekaya! )

My birthday has technically come and gone.....but there are some things I do believe I will be either using my bday money on or saving up to get. Aside from saving up for the big trip to Japan that may happen next summer (hehe hope it does!!! :D) of course. Priority order of want/need.

I'M SUPER EXCITED FOR NOT-OFFICIAL PLANS FOR NEXT SUMMER HEE HEE HEEEEEEE

I WANTS TO GO TO JAPAN WITH EVERYONE

LET'S MAKE IT HAPPEN, PEOPLE

(access better be going on tour)

Birthday was fantastic btw, considering I was expecting it to be a non-event. Hope K.Ito's was just as good!

Feeling a bit better today now. Not sure how long that's gonna last.

Daichan wished Mickey Mouse a happy birthday via his "Twitter" (I actually could understand what he wrote! YAY college is working!). Daichan actually taught me something-I never knew when Mickey's birthday was. SO, shout out to the now 81-year-old icon of Disney!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICKEY!!!!

In other Disney-related news, I finished Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days today. Part of the ending made me cry. It was amazing. I am now dying for a PS2 so I can play the other games, and for a PSP so I can play the upcoming "Birth By Sleep" release. Ah....I can only dream....

ROXAS I LOVE YOU <3 *sniffle*

Also, has anyone else besides me Rachel and Mr. Tea heard about DA's "new band"?

Well......

Sugar and the Honey Tones. --> www.myspace.com/htones

No, I'm not kidding. (I'm wondering if I wish I was)

Yeah. DA's the keyboardist. The other members are the other back-up musicians from domoto, that TV Show DA's always playing in......
xDDDD

........oh random thought, it's almost the 20th right? Oh my. I turn 19 on Friday. That also happens to be Kenichi Ito's birthday. Funny how these random coincidences pop up, ne? lol Happy early birthday to both of us, I guess. I mean hell it'll be the 20th in Japan in like 13 hours anyway.

I would be more excited but given the fact that this year's November 20th = away from my family + grief + being broke + college work = ....err, not much to get excited about. But hey, it's another year all the same. And next year is the big 2-0.....my golden birthday! :)

My roommate is being an absolute wonder and is throwing me a dinner party at "Arigato", the local Japanese steakhouse. YAY

Also HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOM!!! Hers is tomorrow. She's been amazing throughout this hard time and I love her so much.

Question: Should I get a new DS Lite for my birthday? I have a "Phat" but I think it's crapping out.....some of the controls on menu screens are.....well, getting out of my control, to say the least. It's cost me a few not-saved hours on KH.

random post is random. I'm enjoying the fleeting feelings of contentment for the moment. Dunno how long it'll last.

The past week has made me realize how thankful I am for distractions like the internet, video games, reading, and the like. I haven't been able to let my mind sit on its own for very long lately. If I don't distract myself or immerse myself in something I start to dwell on the present mess that is my life, which gets depressing and irritating. It's....weird. This is really the first substantial loss I've ever experienced; is it normal for me to be so burned out or drained?

I have no motivation right now to do anything productive. Because of the excursion I had to take for the funeral and services I'm behind on my schoolwork, I've missed more class than I'd have liked and I just kinda feel like life is a mess in general right now. Papa would want me to move forward....sort it out....fix it......etc.....but I just don't feel the drive. All I want to do is just play my KH game, watch TV, read, or otherwise distract myself with mindless entertainment.

This can't be right. This can't be healthy. But I don't feel anything else. I don't understand what I'm feeling.

Last week I was numb. This week I'm not numb, but in a fog of sorts. Will it just take time to clear? I don't know. I'm worried, but I'm not at the same time. I know it'll work out. But I don't like not knowing how.

Sleep has been hard. I don't want to go to sleep at night because I don't want to have to get up and face the next day and everything I have to deal with. It's not like I'm telling myself stories about the future, like it's "unbearable" or "I can't do it" or whatever, it's just I don't want to have to go out and deal with it period.

My physical appetite and sleeping habits both seem to have changed a little. I'm not starving myself and I'm not an insomniac, but I'm just noticing little changes my body seems to be making. I couldn't sleep past 9:00 for like the past few days, which is weird for me when I don't have to get up and be somewhere.

Help? sorry.......I'm messed up these days.....what the hell is going on with me?

Random tidbit I've realized: I adore Roxas. <3

My grandfather (Papa) passed away this morning. peacefully, in his sleep. 

He was very dear to me, and gave me so much. I have lots of wonderful memories of him. I'm glad he's not in pain anymore.

I knew this was coming. I wasn't expecting it today, but I knew it would happen soon. I'm glad he died peacefully surrounded by people he loved.

I'm so lucky I have great friends and family to rely on, even when I'm away and alone. 

I'm horribly sad, but thankful.

I may not be online much this week. just fyi. 

Or so it should be. 

 It's November 4th in Japanlands. Which means

*ahem*
(And after all that trouble and hassle I went through to send you your present, it had better goddamn well get to you. D:<)

To think that DA's been on this Earth a whole 42 years is a bit staggering......and yet realistic. lol 
I wonder if this man had never been born, where would I be? What would I be like? What would my life be like? He's changed it in so many ways. He's such an important part of my life now; it's insanity to try and comprehend. 

SO here's to the weirdo who makes life worth living when everything else is down and in the gutter; here's to the big kid who makes me laugh and feel happy with his odd little quirks and tidbits; here's to the man who composes my favorite music in the universe. 

Thank you for being born, DA. Life wouldn't be this good without you. And someday, someway, I will meet you in person to tell you that. 

So for tomorrow the DA Family community shall declare it DA Day!!!!!

Hey all on F-list!! LALA HAS MADE NEW FORUMS YAYERS

They're technically made for the metaverse for us campaign but still they're there and they're waiting for us to come and abuse them as DA family gurus so wonderfully do! 

Let's go and make some chaotic DA hellfun! xD 

http://metaverseforus.aimoo.com/

also, if you have a myspace, friend Lala's Metaverse for Us campaign profile

http://www.myspace.com/477891768

YAY

 Not dead. But they took my blood. D:< 

I WANTS A DAICHAN TO CUDDLE *cries* 


*sniff* Kumagoro......I LOVE YOU, MAN